Soon holidays
Due to the development of new products in our lab, I had no holidays for almost a year. You can imagine how empty I am, just have no energy any more.And the book I'm currently writing, 'The Greed for the Bang', also suffered from not having more time to write it. Originally I planned to have written half of it by end of june. But actually I have not more than my first years of childhood and my balloon fetish. As the new products (plastics for the car industry to make the plastic cockpit parts) are now going into preproduction, our R&D lab hasn't too much to do with it anymore. So I decide to take one week off. Sleep more, and certainly write further chapters for my book. I just have to write down my story, I have kept it secret for too long, couldn't accept it for years.
posted by Paul Benoit at 1:51 AM
2 Comments:
I look forward to following the creation and eventual publication of your book. As you've found by now through the Balloon Buddies and other web sites, there are thousands of looners. Most of us lived with terrible guilt and unspeakable fear of discovery as children and young adults.
Many looners arrive at some kind of acceptance of their fetish in adulthood. But many continue to suffer from paralyzing fear of discovery throughout their adult years. Along with that comes an intense sense of guilt and self loathing that makes them less than they could be.
It is such a tragic waste! Your book will be a tremendous contribution to waking looners up to the fact that there is no reason to be afraid. What do they fear? That they will be seen as different? Whoa, no kidding!
People wake up & look around you. When it comes to sexual taste and fantasy, everyone is different! Doh!
Everyone has their own little "secret sexual fantasy", some of them fetishes, some not.
As fetishes go, balloon fetishism is harmless & fun. It hurts no one; causes no physical, emotional or psychic pain to oneself or to loved ones — except when you inflict injury upon yourself because of your unrelenting shame.
I'd like to shout out, "Looners, get your heads screwed on! Damn it, you've nothing to be ashamed of. If you're laboring under the delusion that you're a sick person, then perhaps you should consider that you could have had a fetish that truly is sick — you could have been a Geoffrey Dahmer, who had to eat the body parts of his victims to climax — or the Marquis de Sade — or the Boston Strangler. The list goes on."
We are fortunate that the world has in recent years become open with respect to discussing human sexual diversity (thank you Dr. Ruth). As a result it is readily apparent to anyone who's paying attention that fetishism, ranging in intensity from mild to obsessive, is very common. I don't have statistics at hand but they shouldn't be difficult to find.
I do have subjective data though. I'm extraordinarily gregarious. I ask everyone about their sexual interests. Oddly enough, almost all of them tell me. They seem comfortable that I'd never betray their trust. And I won't. I've found that 3 out of every 10 people I talk to has some kind of erotic fetish — by which I mean some object or body part intensifies their sexual arousal (at one end of the scale) or is essential to their sexual arousal (the other extreme, I suppose).
In the context of fetishistic diversity, there is nothing bizarre or uncommon about toy balloons being a fetish object. Compare balloons to common objects such as lingerie, loafers, track shoes, dress sox, stockings, baby blankets, teddy bears, pacifiers, diapers or feet. Name an object — doubtless has a sexual fetish associated with it. Makes you wonder though what a toaster oven fetishist does to get off, doesn't it?
I didn't mean to ramble on so. I just wanted to say that I am ecstatic that you are writing a book AND that you've created this blog.
You'll do a lot of good for a lot of people!
9:31 PM
@buster - thanks so much for those supporting words. Hope to keep the blog a little bit more often up to date.
4:26 PM
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